ESP???

I am a human being, i have thoughts, feelings, understandings, intelligence and an underlying consciousness that sees through frames of reference of my life that i cant fathom. Some people have a developed sense of awareness for their surroundings. These were, i guess, first identified by the Japanese and the Indians and were used in various different ways as was possible and as they deemed fit.

This eerie feeling of 'been there, done that' keeps coming to me for mundane activities. Its as if I'm living the dream i had a long time back. And believe me, you'd freak if you'd know exactly how the ensuing events were to unfold as if in a drama you were acting out.

Today, for a small part of the lecture, i sat frozen for nearly 15 seconds, as i exactly knew what the professor was gonna do, and what the response was gonna be from the class, the environment. Its surreal, fuzzy and translucent, but, its there, and,
Its damn eerie when something like that happens to you.

I do not claim to have ESP, but these things do build into your psyche, apart from feeling separate from the rest of the crowd, it also gives you an insight into the powers of the mind.

Not to mention that your life is following a script that has already been put into motion, a story where you are unwittingly the central character. Where the decisions you seem to make have already been made for you and the choices you exercise are already forecasted and subsequent repercussions been thought of. Tends to sway your thoughts towards things like 'destiny' and 'fate'.

And, makes life even more difficult for people like me who have always wanted to do their own things and move in one direction and have been swept aside into an altogether different one.

The web of introspection further complicates because of such occurrences.